Once Soundtrack - All the Way Down

You have broken me all the way down
Down upon my knees
And you have broken me all the way now
You'll be the last you'll see

And some fight you gave
When I pushed you away
From me

And in the morning
When you turn in
I'll be far to sea

And you have broken me all the way down
You'll be the last you'll see

And what chance have we got
When you missed every shot
For me

And in the morning
When you turn in
I'll be out of reach

And in the darkness
When you find this
I'll be far to sea

And you have broken me all the way down
You'll be the last you'll see

"I dropped a tear in the ocean, and whenever they find it I'll stop loving you...only then..."

love builds up the broken wall and straightens the crooked path. love keeps the stars in the firmament and imposes rhythm on the ocean tides each of us is created of it and i suspect each of us was created for it” --Maya Angelou

"Every one of us is called upon, Probably many times, to start a new life..,,"

"Every one of us is called upon, probably many times, to start a new life. A frightening diagnosis, a marriage, a move, the loss of a job... And onward full tilt we go, pitched and wrecked and absurdly resolute, driven in spite of everything to make good on a new shore. To be hopeful, to embrace one possibility after another - that is surely the basic instinct... Crying out: High tide! Time to move out into the glorious debris. Time to take this life for what it is." - Barbara Kingsolver, High Tide in Tucson

"Damaged people are dangerous.
They know they can survive."

~Josephine Hartfrom

“The best thing about dreams is that fleeting moment,

when you are between asleep and awake,

when you don't know the difference between reality and fantasy,

when for just that one moment you feel
with your entire soul
that the dream is reality,

and it really happened.”

Thoughts of You

I sit alone in the quiet darkness,
Thoughts of you running through my mind.
And somehow the night is not so dark,
And I am not so quite alone.

I hear a dog bark in the distance,
And I wonder who is trespassing into my thoughts.
But then the stillness engulfs the darkness once again;
And my mind wonders back to thoughts of you.

I can see you standing next to me;
And with your presence, I feel warmth and safety.
Suddenly, you vanish from my vision;
But the warmth from your presence is still surrounding me.

And as I drift of into peaceful slumber,
My thoughts are still of you.
For you are not only in my thoughts,
But in my heart too.

For you have lit a light within my heart;
And no matter how obscure the darkness is surrounding me may be,
The light within me will brighten everything.
And I will stay safe and warm with you forever.

Today

Today I stopped Crying.
I stopped wallowing in Sorrow.
Today I moved up and out of that rut
and BACK into LIFE.
Today I looked forward to TOMORROW and
stepped past
all MY yesterdays.
Today I began to LIVE
Again.
Differently this time.
Happier, Content and Smarter.
Ready to begin.
Today I begin
Begin to
Live Again.

Evanescence - Understanding

You hold the answer deep within your own mind. Consciously you've forgotten it. That's the way the human mind works. Whenever something is too unpleasant, too shameful for us to entertain we reject it, we erase it from our memory, but the imprint is always there.

We wash it all away, we wish it all away, we hope it all away, we ??? it all away.

The pain that grips you
The fear that binds you
Releases life in me
In our mutual shame we hide our eyes
To blind them from the truth that finds a way to who we are

Please don't be afraid
When the darkness fades away
The dawn will break the silence screaming at our hearts
My love for you still grows
This I do for you
Before I try to fight the truth my final time

We're supposed to try to be real. We feel alone when we're not together, and that is real.

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't cry it all away
Can't scratch it all away

Lying beside you
Listening to you breathe
The light that flows inside of you burns inside of me
Hold and speak to me
Of love without a sound
Tell me you will live through this and I will die for you
Cast me not away
Say you'll be with me
For I know I cannot bear it all alone

You're not alone, honey, Never. Never.

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
It just won't fade away

Can't wash it all away
Can't wish it all away
Can't throw it all away
Can't scratch it all away

Can't fight it all away
Can't hope it all away
Can't scream it all away
? it all away
? it all away

But the imprint is always there, nothing is ever really forgotten

Because I'm dying too,
because I'm dying too,
because I'm dying too,
because I'm dying too,
because I'm dying too

Rachael Yamagata - Faster (Video)

I can't talk to you
You think I'm lost inside my mind
You're like an old tattoo
And I know you'll fade in time

I'm not the girl you think you know
I'm not the girl you waited for
I'm not the one for you
It's just one thing left to do

Why don't you let me be?
'Cause I'm a million miles away
Why don't you set me free?
You don't treat me like you said

I won't tuck you in one last time
I'm taking back what is mine
For me, I belong to me

And I'm going faster, you're going backwards
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
I'm going faster, I know what I'm after
I should've been after it all along

I'm going faster
I'm going faster

That's the last black eye
I hope I ever give to you
Yeah, I had a good time
But what's a girl supposed to do?

Take the pictures off the wall
They don't look like us at all
They don't look like friends
I've got new things to begin

Why don't you let me be?
'Cause I'm a million miles away
Why don't you set me free?
I belong to me

And I'm going faster, you're going backwards
You're gonna miss me when I'm gone
I hang from the ceiling, I feel what I'm feeling
I should've been feeling it all along

I'm going faster
I'm going faster

I'm going faster, you're going backwards
You're going to miss me when I'm gone
I hang from the ceiling, I feel what I'm feeling
I should've been feeling it all along

I'm going faster
I'm going faster

I Can Only Imagine

What an amazing video. This song speaks to me in more ways then I can ever say. Thanks to a good friend for reminding me of this treasure and all that God has provided.

Gary Allan - Life Ain't Always Beautiful

What a beautiful ride...

Life Path Number 4: The Pillar

Your Life Path Number: 4

Those with a Life Path Number 4 are the earth on which everything good is built. You are probably the most trustworthy, organized and practical person you - or your friends - know. Life Path Number 4 people have a gift for planning and following through with their plans until the end (a rare and powerful combination of characteristics). Although you have an idealistic nature and constantly strive for perfection, your feet remain firmly on the ground. Unlike the more dreamy numbers, you are always looking for ways to make things perfect using the tools at hand. You are an idealist, but only in the sense that you refuse to quit until you have built your ideal world. This may show itself professionally, where you will probably not be in a leadership role but instead apply your talents by attending to every detail and ensuring they are completed. You leave the big talk to others, preferring to put your proverbial shoulder to the wheel to see the big plans come to life. This may come as a surprise to you, but you are famous for your will power. While you are walking along not even noticing the effect you have on those around you, you quietly develop a reputation for personal strength that borders on sheer stubbornness. You don't mean to be stubborn, it's not due to your ego - it's simply that once you have made a decision (after careful and lengthy deliberation) it takes an earthquake to change your mind. This is one of the challenges of being a Life Path Number 4: changing paths mid-race. Even though you are very intelligent and may see the wisdom of changing a plan, it cuts to your core to do so: you like to see a decision through to the very end, good, bad or ugly. This may be frustrating for others at times, but shows its beauty in the fierce and eternal loyalty to give to your spouse, your workmates and your family. Everyone needs a Life Path Number 4 in their life.

Couldn't Have Said It Any Better...

"Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever
If you feel you've lost your way...."

Isn't that the truth...the time it takes to get from one place in your life to another sometimes feels like it's just ticking by...just ticking by. You know everything you've done is for all the right reasons, but what if ....Gotta keep fighting and never giving up. Gotta keep climbing and breathing...you'll make it through...to a better you...a better place..a better life... a better love...just gotta keep breathing. Every step you climb, every peak you cross, gotta keep moving out of that valley. Gotta keep on climbing...knowing it's all there for you...just knowing...

"With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Whether the hurricanes
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries..."

Adam Lambert- No Boundaries (Live Version) FULL VIDEO

Seconds, hours, so many days
You know what you want but how long can you wait
Every moment last forever
If you feel you've lost your way

What if your chances are already gone
Started believing that I could be wrong
But you give me one good reason
To fight and never walk away
Cause here I am still holding on

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Whether the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
So you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand
And show you that you can
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

I fought to the end to stand on the edge
What if today is as good it gets
Don't know where the future's headed
Nothing's gonna bring me down

I've jumped every bridge and I've run every line
I've risked being saved but I always knew why
I always knew why
So here I am still holding on

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Whether the hurricanes
To get to that one thing
So you think the road is going nowhere
Just when you've almost gave up on your dreams
Then take it by the hand
And show you that you can

You can go higher, you can go deeper
There are no boundaries above and beneath you
Break every rule cause there's nothing between you
and your dreams

Every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe

Yeah, there are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

With every step you climb another mountain
Every breath it's harder to believe
You'll make it through the pain
Whether the hurricanes
There are no boundaries
There are no boundaries

There are no boundaries

Lady Antebellum One Day You Will

Lady Antebellum, One Day You Will Lyrics

You feel like you’re falling backwards
Like you’re slippin’ through the cracks
Like no one would even notice
If you left this town and never came back
You walk outside and all you see is rain
You look inside and all you feel is pain
And you can’t see it now

Chorus
But down the road the sun is shining
In every cloud there’s a silver lining
Just keep holding on (just keep holding on)
And every heartache makes you stronger
But it won’t be much longer
You’ll find love, you’ll find peace
And the you you’re meant to be
I know right now that’s not the way you feel
But one day you will

You wake up every morning and ask yourself
What am I doing here anyway
With the weight of all those disappointments
Whispering in your ear
You’re just barely hanging by a thread
You wanna scream but you’re down to your last breath
And you don’t know it yet

Repeat Chorus

Find the strength to rise above
You will
Find just what you’re made of, you’re made of

Repeat Chorus

One day you will
Oh one day you will